Twenty-Eighteen

So it's been a while since I wrote: about three and half years!
I've been reading through my past posts and realised how much I love to write and it's great revisiting past memories. (Good and bad!)
Most of my previous stuff started as I'd moved to London, strangely enough I am re-starting my blogging from Brisbane, Australia where I moved to 6 months ago.
Apart from the obvious similarities in moving away from home, starting a new life and job in a strange and far away place (a lot further this time!) I guess as in London, in Brisbane I find myself alone sometimes and needing a hobby; hence the blogging.

I have far too much time on my hands at the moment for thinking. I listened to a podcast with Fearne Cotton and Matt Haig (Reasons to stay alive) and they were explaining how writing is a therapy and makes your feelings tangible. As much as you don't want other people to know what you have been going through, it's important to tell people as you just become introverted and it's as if those feelings don't matter as you've just kept them bottled up.
I'm learning that I need to express myself more, I've seen a huge change in myself over the past three years. I'm no longer as care-free, maybe that's just something to do with getting older and knowing more and being more aware of what's going on around me, but I feel I'm struggling a bit more than a few years back.
But I'm kinda okay with that, knowing that I can get through hard times and see a brighter future ahead. It's just trying to get there that's the issue!

I'm starting to wonder whether I run away from things and think I'll find something (or myself) away from home, but obviously all of my baggage just gets carted onto the next place.
I'm looking for work in Brisbane which I'm not having much luck with and I find myself feeling lost and without purpose. I'm applying for all these jobs that I really don't care about! I have no idea what I want to do with my life, what job I want to have, which I guess most people feel at some point but I need to find a way to discover that.

So onwards and upwards with self discovery...